Everyone Experiences Fear - Sometimes

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10

There are sometimes when I am afraid – unsure of what the future has in store, all alone in foreign country; one that I never dreamt that I would ultimately become a citizen of. My friends and family all live millions of miles away. What happens to my girls if I get sick? How will they get to school? How will they get fed?

I know the scriptures and I understand that God’s thoughts and plans for my life are for my good – to give me hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11-14) but sometimes I feel like a hybrid seed. A seed made up of two parts – a spiritual part that is strong in the Lord and in the power of his might and a carnal part that still looks to the external world for answers and understanding.

The carnal part allows me to remember however that I am human. People tell me I am a symbol of strength; raising two children in a foreign country alone. I am quick to respond that the strength they see is not mine. It is simply God’s strength that displays itself through me. Every day I get up I have to ask God for the will and stamina to make it through – one day at a time. There are even some days, I amaze myself.

So I am a believer and I love God with all my heart and soul and nothing gives me more pleasure than to share the little that I know with the world but I must admit that I am just as human as the next man, just as vulnerable and just as weak – sometimes.
If like me you are struggling from one day to the next and are sometimes afraid of the unknown, rest in the God that knows all. He knows and determines the end from the beginning. Do not fear; do not be dismayed, God is with you